I need to vent!

I am trying to stop the complaining spirit that I have or used to have.....but everytime I need to vent, I feel bad because I feel as though I am complaining....so I keep it bottled in and then I burst! I feel like screaming....cuz I'm misunderstood.....I'm not complaining, just talking about what's on my mind.

I appreciate the fact that...I have a job.....but I am tired! I just want to sit for a minute!
I appreciate the fact that...I was accepted into grad school, but man, I'm getting a lil' discouraged. And I don't think some people get it. I think that they think it's no big deal. I think that they think that it's just like undergrad! I WISH!
I appreciate the fact that...There are so many academically enhanced (Smart) professors at my univ. but.....I think we worship diff. Gods. I think that they think that they are God...and that their word is law! I think that they don't like to be wrong and furthermore, I don't think they very much care about my opinion. I HATE IT! And then I get all caught up in the GLBT talks (Gay/Lesbian/Bisexual/Transsexual) I am not against the people or should I say their personality...I am just strongly against their lifestyle. NONE OF MY PROF's thus far can handle that. So, they tell us to speak our minds and stand for what we believe in but then when what I stand for is diff from what they stand for....they argue you down....and then a lil lightbulb goes off and you realize that they have to grade you....so you shut up just to appease the PROF. THIS SUCKS. I'm thinking about transferring to a HBU. but then i think about what I read tonight in Phillipians 2. It talked about pressing on...even though! it talks about speaking about God even when you are in the presence of your enemies. It talks about you being rewarded because you stayed true to God's word! That energizes me and makes me want to keep going to class and standing my ground. I get a headache thinking about all this stuff. I don't usually eat more than one piece of pizza....tonight, I ate 6 in one sitting. and today for luch i ate two plates of thanaksgiving dinner at a work luncheon.

To top that off, I have a noisy neighbor...he plays music really loud and he walks really hard. The other morning I was ironing my clothes for church (6:30 am) and I hear moaning noises...I was like, I am hallucinating. then it got louder and then it got rhythmic......and the ceiling started creaking...........I was like....go to sleep! .........oh well

Another thing...I appreciate the fact hat I have an apartment, but I'm tired of cleaning. I'm not a hog...but I clean and then next thing Iknow, it's dirty again....not dirty just cluttered. OK, I quit, I am going to go wash my face ! I DIGRESS!

And for the record! I am not in favor of GLBT's and I do not believe that they should be given Civil Unions or any other kind of marriage aggreement!

Night!